18.1.13

I feel so sad that FYP is ending in like two or three weeks time.
I feel so depressed that I will never have same fyp roommates even though at times I really wish they can lower down their noise level.
I feel so uncertain about my future. What if I don't get into university at all?

However,
I feel so grateful to be in Mr Tey's group. So grateful that he believe in me, teach me patiently even though I'm always panicking, being there for all of us when we needed help for our project and being such a great supervisor throughout this whole year. What more could you even ask for when you have such a near to perfect supervisor?
This whole three years, he's the only lecturer that left the most impact in my poly life.
He inspired me to be a good lecturer, a good programmer and able me to lead my group with his guidance.
Although he only appeared at the very last part of my poly life, but I really wished he appeared earlier.
No one throughout this whole three years has actually made me want to work so hard to get into University for a future study. And it's in an engineering course.
Who would knew that I'll work so hard for the very last year.
I may not be the smartest girl or programmer in this world.
But I know I can work harder to be one of the good programmers and help out students who are weaker in programming. I know the path that I'm gonna pick will be tough. But, I really wish all these hard work will pay off. Maybe I won't end up being the best lecturer or maybe I'm not even able to qualify to be a lecturer.
But this tiny dream of mine will never go away.
I'm just so glad to know Mr Tey and I hope he will continue what he's doing and help more engineering students out there who are weaker in their studies. He gave me hope for my future.

(Yes, I've admitted that I'm not that bright/smart. I do work slightly harder because I'm not the smartest girl. Although I really wished that I'm smart.)

A year, it just went past like this.
All my hard work for this project had paid off.
Seeing juniors being impressed by how our project works, makes me smile and glad that they asked questions related to the project. Visitors/lecturers have being asking questions and I'm really glad that I'm able to present it and they were interested in the project.
I'm super tired today, but I'm happy.
Happily tired at last.


(I teared a little while typing this blog post. Idk why I'm so emotional when it's about this topic.)

The Girl