17.9.12

I wonder.
I think it's always my problem when I drift away from a huge group of people.
Let's see.
I drifted away from my primary school clique.
Then my secondary school clique.
And now I'm about to drift away from my poly clique.
Perhaps I'm just not those kind of person that will do all those plannings and stuff.

I think because I like slacking around, doing nothing and I don't club.
Everyone is heading to club and enjoy their time.
Yet I'm at home, sitting down here watching shows.
I think I'm the worst friend ever.
Argh, I used to be fine with everyone.
Until this person makes me start to get irk by every single shit.
(If you're wondering, it's not anyone from my poly friends.)
I start to be selfish, bitchy, gossipy and fucked up.
I used to be nice to everyone, not judgmental and patience.
Losing my fucking patience cause of that person.
Which brings my limit down.
Really down.
Changed too much
I want to be back to the old self. Other than being that depressed over life though.
I did change for a slight better self.
More positive but still easily affected.

Shall think about my life and hope I will change for a better.

BYE

Edit:
Was reading this article to boost self esteem.
So, hanging around with positive people, have more happy songs, buy more clothes that flatters yourself, give yourself a treat, get away from hectic lifestyle for once, diet&exercise and lastly..

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