25.5.12

This week,
Many ups and downs.
Ups:
Done with my wisp assignments.
Somehow understood what I have to do for media.
I DID studied a little.
Understood wtf I'm gonna work on for FYP.
Many cute little encouragement from friends and I feel so loved.
(Sharon is being a good groupmate to me, really. Trust me.)

Downs:
Short-Circuit one F383 chip.
Codes that I've been working on for two weeks is just one whole piece of useless codes.
Breakdown cause I can't handle the sudden stress.
(I KNOW I'M WEAK LOL)
Knowing that one of my groupmate is being clueless about her portion yet I wasn't able to help.

I know I'm not wonder women or any super heroes.
But I would hope that I could help everyone if I'm smart enough and good enough to know everything.
(Frankly speaking I'm just worried for Anna. Sharon is kind of doing well. Nothing much for me to worry.)
I know people weren't even blaming me for anything.
Yet I put the blame on me.
I know Mr Siaw and Mr Tey wasn't even angry about my fucked up codes or stressing me to work on my codes.
I just feel that, I'm not doing my work properly and I failed to do so cause I'm dumb.
I know they are good. Really good supervisors. I didn't picked the wrong supervisors.
In fact I think many groups were rather envy about ours cause of our supervisors.
(And I think many of them actually submitted this group project as their choice. But I always have those luck you see. Just like how lucky of me to get appealed out of Nursing and got into this course with amazing people.)
Today, Mr Tey just went through with us about our project. Like what we are seriously working on.
I don't know why but I felt motivated after the "talk" and we got closer with him now I believe.
Now I dare to approach Mr Tey already!!! YAY! No longer that awkward. (LOL)
(Just one small note, BOTH SUPERVISORS DAMN GENTLEMEN! I SWEARRRRRR! Mr Tey helped me to pull the chair out for me to sit then Mr Siaw is always helping us to open the door if we are leaving together. HOW NICE! Normally lecturer just dgaf about those small things.)
I don't know but I think people might think that I'm the leader of the group. But I'm not. I'm just making sure that whatever you're doing is correct. I might be wrong but I would still make sure you're on the right track.
Sucks to be a perfectionist and being real lazy at the same time.

That's all for this week!
Hopefully next week I'll have a better week! (:
BYE! ^_^

The Girl